Today, I am winning 😀
If you have just joined us, this is my story up to date 🙂 I am writing this as I have as of this morning opened my facebook page that works in conjunction with this blog, it will be a place that I can just add whatever I feel like, little things in my day, recipes I find, interesting nutrition stuff, without having to write a whole life story about it on here 🙂
Anyhow, my story is this: I was really really overweight. At my biggest I was 118 kilos. And I’m not quite 5’3″. I was tired, I felt sick all of the time, I couldn’t be awake without some kind of discomfort, and I was not happy. I wasn’t always like this, and instead of accepting it I wanted answers. I have tried every diet, every diet pill, every shake, every fad program, you name it, Ive tried it (with the exception of a tapeworm diet, now thats just gross!). Nothing worked, and more than anything in the world I wanted to have a baby. At that size apparently its pretty difficult, but I eventually managed to have a bubba, and the day I had him I weighed 118 kilos. Six months later, I still weighed 118 kilos. And he wasn’t contributing to that number anymore
The turning point was my 30th birthday. I put on my favourite shirt, and felt happy that I looked ok, until I saw photos later on that made me so upset, and so angry. I had always said to myself, I’m not that big, I would feel it and catch myself and do something about it before I got scary big. But I hadn’t, and I got a bit of a shock. Yes, I could see the jeans hanging on the clothes line. Yes, I made my husband park the car close to things because it hurt me to walk very far. And yes, I was sneaking so much food into the house and the rubbish back out because I was embarrassed to be eating it, but I still did.
After I saw those photos (and untagged every single one of them from facebook) I went and joined a shake program, and decided that this was it, last chance. And I lost 20 kilos. I was stoked. My ultimate goal to lose was 60, but 20 was a decent start and that was good 🙂 Then we moved and I lost another 12. I had stopped doing the program because I had come to a standstill, and that was over a year ago now. I am still at that standstill. And its frustrating the hell out of me. Yes, I have lost 32 kilos. Yes, I am happy about that, but I want more.
I want energy. I want the energy that healthy people have, and the glow they have, and the stamina to do all of these things they do without having to throw themselves on the couch at the end of the day and be completely drained. I know there are people out there like that, and I want to be like them.
I am studying nutrition at uni, and I want to be able to help people. So I figure that I will be my best advertisement. The key is to get ‘there’, where there is I have a pretty good idea, I just have to dig really deep and achieve it.
So…. the title of this post is ‘A victory’. And its a good one 😀
Through studying, and researching different types of foods and diets (I use the word ‘diets’ not in a ‘diet plan’ sense where you do something for 12 weeks and then eat a pizza, I mean as your regular every day food intake) I have become very interested in raw food, in particular juicing, but also whole foods, no processing, just real food like you get out of nature. I have attempted to add more of these into my diet, while becoming mostly vegetarian, dairy free, soy free and juicing every day. Its been hard, but at the 118 day mark, its paying off.
If you have read my posts on another blog http://thepcosproject.wordpress.com/, you would know that I have all kinds of issues with estrogen dominance, polycystic ovaries, lots of hormonal fluctuations, moodiness, skin issues, and I also used to take thyroid medication. I took myself off that a year ago, as I had experienced test results at both ends of the spectrum, with zero change in symptoms. And as of my last two blood test results, I was no longer ovulating. My progesterone was just so low it wasn’t possible. I was also very tired and cranky most of the time. So I decided to take myself off everything, I was taking no tablets, no supplements, absolutely nothing for the first time in my adult life. And I started myself on green juices.
The doctors surgery rang me last week to go in for my 6 monthly thyroid check up, seeing as I used to be on medication they still monitor me and today I went to get my results. I asked the doctor to test EVERYTHING, all of my hormones, thyroid, estrogen, progesterone, everything. And guess what. My thyroid is the best its ever been. My iron, B12, cholesterol, everything, had moved back into mid range, completely perfect. And the big one: my progesterone has risen up to a level where I am ovulating again. I was told that it might not ever happen, and through changing my diet, and cutting out all of the stupid junk that I was putting in, in the way of food and synthetic medication, and loads of animal products, I have managed to fix myself completely, in the space of a year!!!!!!!
Trying to find a photo for the profile pic on my new fb page was interesting too: I only have a few that I have taken myself recently, and I couldn’t have possibly used a photo from even a few months ago, because I look totally different. All of a sudden, I look awake. I have shiny eyes, my skin is the best its ever been, I may not have lost any more weight but wow, do I look different. I just couldn’t get over the fact that I don’t look so tired any more. And I don’t feel it either 🙂 Not like I used to. Yes, I am busy with a million things between 8am and midnight, when I finally shut the computer and put the uni work away, but a year ago I remember sitting on the couch crying because the pressure in my head from stress and tiredness had made me feel like my eye was going to pop out, and it had scared me. I’m not anything like that now. Its almost exactly a year from that moment, and although I have more to do and more deadlines coming up than I ever have before in my life, there is little stress. I just have to work though it all, and have a get it done attitude. Simple. Funny what a little diet change can do for someone isn’t it 😀
Anyhow, you have heard enough from me today, this was a HUGE post, and I hope you made it through. My new facebook page is https://www.facebook.com/pages/daisyflowers/159348377607312, come and say hi 😀 And thanks for all of the support while I do all of this, its awesome 😀